Good morning son. I woke up thinking about you this morning. All I know is that I really, really miss you. When I die the first person I am gonna look for in Heaven is you. You can count on it. Pretty soon your bubby will be coming to stay with us. You love him so much. in fact you were looking forward to seeing him again. Wait a minute. I just realized that you can go see him anytime that you want to. The best part about it is that you don’t have to set through that boring old car ride all the way to Kansas. No you get to do something so much better. You can spread those wings of yours and fly.
Well today is Friday. That means it is the end to another week at work. I can come home tonight and spend all weekend with you, mommy and sissy. I can finally get some much-needed rest. I hate to change subject on you so quickly but something has been bugging me since the day that you died. I feel like God was mad at me for how hard I was on you. The way that I used to yell at you. The way that I used to whip your butt. The way that I made you set at the table and eat your food. How I kept you in your bedroom most of the time so that you would not tear up the house. I know that I was doing these things out of love for you, but I cannot help to think about it. Maybe if I was a little more easy-going on you things would not be the way they are. I am left with that burning question in my mind.
God I know that you are reading this to. Will you please give my family and I strength today. Just continue to build strength back up in us so that we can be at full strength one day. It is still very hard to do a lot of things, to get back into the routine. It seems as if we start to gain a little momentum , then we have a setback. Lord we need you now more than ever. Oh yeah I just wanted to thank you for having little Autumn to remind us to pray at night before we eat. All of these things I pray in the name of your wonderful son Jesus. Amen.
Well bubby that time has come again. Work. Now I want you to listen to me. If you come to work with me today I want you to be safe. I saw you in some pretty weird places yesterday. If you were here doing those things in person I would tan your little hyde. I know you are an angel now but I am still your father and I would like it if you were to be careful.
I love you like a fat kid loves cake,
To my readers
It may seen a little strange, but I seen this boy standing on top of a stack of wood yesterday at work. I could almost hear him say “daddy look.” My family and I love little Caleb so much. He truly is our little Angel now.