Good morning Caleb,
I will tell you what. It sure does seem like time is really starting to pick up its momentum again. I cannot believe that it is already Friday. Soon it will be time to take bubby back home and school will start-up again. Sissy will be in kindergarten this year and bubby will be in second grade. In another year or so you would have been starting preschool. Your mother and I already had it planned out. You were to attend the same preschool that sissy went to. But that will not be necessary now. All I am left with is the sheer imagination of what it would have been like. That is really all I am left with. Imagination.
I sure will be glad once today is over with. I am ready to be through with work for the week. Even though tomorrow is like one of the biggest days of my life I am still going to sleep in a little bit. I was thinking about something. In our bedroom there is a picture of you and mommy lying on the couch sleeping. It is one of the most precious pictures that we have of you. Every time that I look at that picture I cannot help but to think of you. I get an empty feeling over me that I cannot seem to shake. It really makes me miss you. When looking at this picture, I get the sudden urge to hold you in my arms too. If I could just hold one more time. You see bubby there are little moments like this that haunt me all the time. I will be doing just fine for a little while, then I will get this sudden feeling of loss. It almost feels as if someone is reaching inside of me, trying to tear my heart out. I have to fight for it back. Once I get things back together again, I continue on with the rest of the day. The only bad thing about it is that after it is all over with I feel completely drained. It really does not take much for a great day to go sour. I have accepted these feelings though. They must be a normal part of grief, because I have never felt anything like this before in my life. I wonder if mommy ever gets these feelings?
I love you like a fat kid loves cake,
To my readers
I really cannot express my gratitude for you stopping by here. I love it when you come to visit and I hope that your stay here is a pleasant one. I really do appreciate you reading my stories and helping me to carry on the name of my son Caleb. I plan on doing this until the day that I take my walk with God. I hope that you share that journey with me. I would simply love it. Thank you for being here. I would really like to know how these stories touch you. So if you could use the comment box below and don’t worry your email is safe. I would never share it with anyone. You can count on that. Thank you….Jeffrey
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