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A Cool Sunny Morning

Good morning Caleb, 

Today’s letter is one of a different nature.  I decided that I was going to come out to the cemetery and write this.  It is really rather peaceful out here.  The wind is blowing on the back of my neck and the birds are all singing.  We had a bit of rain this morning, but it has gave way to a cool sunny morning.  I simply love the way it feels out here.

Before I sat down to write this I stopped by your graveside to tidy things up a bit.  There was some grass on your stone and some of the displays were knocked over.  It looks much better now.  It seems as if I am not the only one who has been out here recently because there is a piece of candy lying in the grass where you are buried.  This has to be the act of either your grandma or grandpa, they always make sure that you are good and stocked up with candy.  Needless to say, If I am ever in the area and I want a piece, I know where to get it from.

 I also went to make sure that the other three plots we have beside you are still reserved, they are.  One day when your mother and I come across some extra money, I am gonna go in there and pay for those plots so that we can be certain about being buried beside you when we make our transition.

 I was reading a story yesterday about hospice and palliative care.  One specific part of the story that I remember the most was in the beginning of the article.  It spoke of an elderly man who was sitting up in his bed shooting the breeze with several political colleagues one evening.  Early the next morning he had passed away.  This reminded me of you.  I remembered the last time I saw you alive was when I brought you over to the house to change your dirty diaper.  The next time I saw you, you were gone.  It amazes me how fragile life is, one minute we are here.  The next minute we are gone.  Wow!  All that is left now is an emotional scar, memories, a plot of dirt and a rock.  I miss you bubby.

 I Love you like a fat kid loves cake, 

Daddy


 
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Posted by on August 31, 2011 in Letters to Caleb

 

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Proverbs 25:28


 

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Posted by on August 31, 2011 in Daily Inspiration

 

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An Invitation

Good morning Caleb, 

It is almost that time of year again.  Yes, you guessed it right, sissy’s birthday.  Can you guess how she will be?….”3″….nope that is not right, try again….”4″….you are getting closer….”5″….not quite, but you are super close….”6″….alright!  you did it!  you guessed it right!  I am so proud of you.  Your birthday is going to be next month.  You are going to be 3.  The question is, are you going to be there?  I sure would like it, heck we would all like it.  Maybe God will watch your little puppy while you are away.  So what do you say.  Wanna come?  Hey!  I know!  you can come to sissy’s party as well.  It would be awesome to see you so many times.  Think about it ok, let me know when you have an answer.  

I love you like a fat kid loves cake, 

Daddy


 
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Posted by on August 30, 2011 in Letters to Caleb

 

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1 Peter 2:2-3


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Posted by on August 30, 2011 in Daily Inspiration

 

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What Are You Waiting For?

The past doesn’t matter, only your decision now will make the eternal difference.The price has been paid for your mistakes, your sins, and your rebellion. All you have to do is accept the pardon, the forgiveness offered.

What are you waiting for?

 “Jesus, you took my place, you have paid the price for my sins, you have set me free.  Thank you. I invite you into my heart, help me to live that others might see you and find eternal life, Amen.”

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Posted by on August 29, 2011 in Daily Inspiration

 

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A Short Visit

Good morning Caleb, 

Yay!  It is finally Monday.  I have been waiting for this day all weekend.  I am so glad to finally be back here with you again.  Mommy and sissy are gone to work and school, so it is just you and me.  Come on over here and let me give you a super-size hug.  Thank you, that is all I needed from you today.  I feel a thousand times better now.  Time to go and get my day going.  I will see you again tomorrow.

I love you like a fat kid loves cake, 

Daddy

 
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Posted by on August 29, 2011 in Letters to Caleb

 

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Proverbs 12:1


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Posted by on August 26, 2011 in Daily Inspiration

 

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A Beautiful Picture

Good morning Caleb, 

There’s my big boy!  I sure did miss you.  Did you sleep very well last night?  I didn’t, in fact it was a very restless night.  I would almost bet that it was that energy drink that I consumed about two hours before bed.  That was a bad move on my part, but it tasted so good I could not stop drinking it.  Yesterday grandpa and your uncle came over to our house.  They helped me tear the swing set apart and haul it off.  It was to the point that any child playing on it would  be taking a risk.  After what had happened to you I could not imagine what it would be like if a child was to come over in our yard and get hurt.  That is a risk that I am not willing to take.  I have seen enough children get hurt, so if  it upsets you that I got rid of it then so be it.  The same goes for sissy and any other child for that matter.  

I think that it is time to make amends with the next door neighbors.  I will pray really hard about doing so, so that it will be totally driven by God.  I know my neighbors need solace.  They have got to be in terrible shape.  It is timebubby, will you help as well?  I think the best way to approach this is to write them a letter, a really heartfelt letter.  The ice needs to be re-broken and we need a fresh start.  Frankly I am tired of the wall that has been constructed between us.  They are really nice people and we need to forgive them.  For our sake.  I can tell you that there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about it.  It really has gone to far and our family needs this peace.  I will make a pledge to God right now.  God, I realize that you are trying to reach through to me about this.  I notice it now and I will do as you ask.  I just pray to you heavenly father that you give me words you want them to hear so that they may find peace.  I also ask father that you allow us to have peace as well.  In Jesus name.  Amen.

There we have it.  Just as soon as we get done talking here son, I am going to get busy on this.  I want it to be in the mail today.  The swing set was not the only thing that I got rid of.  The little baby trampoline is also gone, along with that little plastic slide toy that you loved so much.  When I threw that out, it felt as if I was throwing a piece of my heart away.  I mustered up the strength to do it though.  I wanted it gone and it is.  

The house is so very quiet right not.  mommy is at work and sissy is at school.  If you were still here with us, this new job I have taken on would have allowed us to spend a whole bunch of time together.  I would probably be ready to sell you by the end of the week, but we both know that I would never do anything like that.  The only person I would ever consider selling you to, has you right now.  I would come into your room to wake you in the morning.  The moment you heard the door open you would hop straight out of your bed and come running straight to my arms.  I miss that moment with you very much and what I wouldn’t do to experience it one more time.  

Over the past several weeks my letters to you, bubby has really started to touch so many hearts.  I think that it would be just awesome if we could show these people who dealing with death is really not a difficult thing to do.  If we could show them how to have a strong relationship with God and allowing oneself to really “feel” the presence of the deceased.  To take that love of God and paint the most brilliant pictures.  I will describe what I see of you right now to give those people an example.

The picture of you on the homepage of this blog is where it all starts.  If you just look at it hard enough, you will see that God is preparing you for your journey and by the look on your face, you know it.  This picture was taken on Easter.  The day that we celebrate the Lord’s Resurrection.  With that peaceful thought in mind let us fast forward 1 week and  2 days later to the day that you passed.  It was a very sad and dark day indeed.  I remember dropping to my knees on the pool deck once the paramedics arrived.  I was one with God at that moment in time.  I called on him to help give strength.  He delivered.  When I walked into emergency room doors I felt God’s presence really strong.  I knew he was with our family the whole way.  Later on that evening before you passed, we were in the room with you.  I felt God and you for that matter, standing right there with us.  Even though this was such horrible event all I could see is God’s brilliant loving light, and you were covered in it.  I knew right then and there you were in a better place.  Just a short time later you passed.  We all gathered hands and I said a final prayer giving you to God.  I was giving myself permission to let you go.  I knew from that point on that you were going to be right beside me for the rest of my life.  As long as I keep God close, I will have you.  This is why my faith in God is so strong through this loss.  What is really good about it, our family is feeding off of it.  It is giving us all strength.  All of that love is wrapped up in this blog so that others may feed off of this wonder blessing I like to call, “A Father’s Love.”

I need to go and get my day going here.  I hope that you have an awesome day in heaven bubby.

I love you like a fat kid loves cake.

Daddy

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Posted by on August 25, 2011 in Letters to Caleb

 

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