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Thinking of You Again

Dear Caleb, Hey there little man.  How is heaven treating you?  I know, I know, it is silly of me to ask such a crazy question.  You are hanging out with God what can be more awesome than that?  As for us, mommy, your brothers and sister and I are all doing really well.  I have not checked in with you in while but that is because I figured you have a whole lot better things to do then to keep coming back down here to comfort me.  I was talking to a gentleman the other day about you and he gave me some really good insight on letting you go so that you could just enjoy your time in heaven.  I took heed of this advice, so we will see where it leads me. Last night we were at dinner with a friend, we shared your story with them.  Once again it got me thinking of you.  I showed them the picture of you staring up at God during the Easter party the year you died.  I realized then how much I truly still hurt inside because of you being gone.  There will always be a part of my heart that is dedicated to you, and these letters are an extension of my heart. One thing I can rest on though, I know one day I will be in heaven with you and I am gonna give you a super hug, you know like the ones we used to give each other.

I love you like a fat kid loves cake,

Daddy

 
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Posted by on February 9, 2015 in Letters to Caleb

 

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Good Direction

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There will come a day in your grief when you think that you have finally overcome.  A day when you think that all is well.  A day when you think that you are finally rising through the ashes.  Only to find that you are simply having a great day in grief.  Embrace days like this and build on them.  The grass is truly greener on the other side.

 
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Posted by on February 8, 2015 in After the Ashes

 

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A Letter to You

Good morning Caleb, 

 

I am still blown away by the article that was wrote on my blog, http://my-search-for-god.com/2011/07/18/a-fathers-love/.  This lady did a really good job describing my blog in her own words, it really touched her heartbubby.  It is amazing what God is doing for us.  It is really good to see that this blog is doing exactly what I intend for it to do.  Bubby I am going to cut my letter short to you this morning because God is putting word on my heart.  I need to speak to my readers today.  I know that you understand.  Have an awesome day in heaven.

 

I love you like a fat kid loves cake, 

 

Daddy

 

To my readers

 

Today this post is for you.  After reading one persons response this site, it really encouraged me to reach out to you on a higher level with the power of God behind me.  First of all and most importantly, THANK YOU for stopping by here.  I really hope that you find the peace that you need when it comes to dealing with loss in your family.  I completely understand that it is not a very easy task.  It is my greatest intent for this site to become the place that you come to when you need an uplift.  After all our parted loved ones do not want to see us all beat up and sad.

 

When we lose our loved ones we go through the grieving process.  It is normal to cry, be sad and have a flood of emotions wash over you, after all you just did lose something so dear to you.  This is a very big event in our lives and we all must go through it, like it or not.  What is important is how you handle yourself on your journey down the road WITH them.  Notice I said, “with.”  You see when our loved ones part from us they try everything in their power to communicate with us.  Sadness and depression put a big mask over the communication channel.  It is really important to open up your heart and feel the everyday presence of your loved one.  They are standing beside you right now or they are no to far off.  In fact they cannot go on until you stop beating yourself up.

 

The death of my son was very sad indeed and I do not wish it on any of you if you are parents.  On the night he passed in that hospital, I gave him to God.  I accepted his death the day he died.  For some people this takes a really long time, in fact some people never find peace in losing their loved ones.  NOW is the time to do that.  Once you get past this hurdle, and yes it will be painful, only then will you realize that they are more alive now than they have ever been.  You will be more receptive to the things that are happening around you.  You will feel a great peace come over you and you loved one will be right there beside you.  They have been there the whole time.

 

If you feel this conversation should go on, or if you have something that you would like to add feel free to do so below in the comment box.  Remember your email is safe with me and I will never give it out to anyone.  I hope that this letter to you has given you inspiration.  I pray that you to can be touched by an angel…Jeffrey


 
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Posted by on July 19, 2011 in Letters to Caleb

 

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To Brush or Not to Brush

‘”It is time to go night, night.”  “Let’s go brush your teeth.”  “No!”  I don’t want to!”  That is a tune that I am way to familiar with son.  You absolutely hated to brush your teeth.  If you could get away with not brushing your teeth a night before bed time, you would be all for it.  I remember going to the dentist with you one day.  You laid your little head down in my lap while the dentist brushed your teeth.  I could tell that you did not like it.  But I kept reassuring you that everything was going to be alright.  You did a fine job that day.  In fact once it was all over with,  the dentist gave to you a  brand new toothbrush and a token to get something out of the machine.  You, sissy and I sat in a room while the nurse gave me instructions on how to better care for your teeth.  You had a small case of gingivitis.  I was told that I should brush your teeth more often and to keep around the gum line.  To be totally honest with you I really did not care too much for that nurse to tell me there was something wrong with your teeth.  But I made a commitment to you that day.  I was going to make sure that the next time that you had a dentist appointment, everything was going to be alright.  That day never came though.  You know I cannot help but to set and wonder.  Are you doing the same thing in heaven?  Or are you cooperating the way that should be doing?  Hopefully you are listening to God better than you did for me.  Well I guess I better call it a night son, I need to read a little bit.  Then I am going to crash.  I will see you in my dreams.

I love you like a fat kid loves cake, 

Daddy

I would like to take the time to tell you thank you for stopping by and reading about my little Caleb.  It is my goal to make sure that the world never forgets how awesome he was.  I want to help you as well.  Feel free to leave me a message on the meebo app.  I will get back to you as soon as I can…Jeffrey

 
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Posted by on June 20, 2011 in Letters to Caleb

 

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A Hole in the Heart.

In the morning when I wake up, I feel you.  I know that you are around me.  I can feel you.  So why don’t you quit hiding from me and come out to play.  At night I leave your bedroom door open  so that you can come and sleep with me.  Where are you?  I push a stroller down the street with a teddy bear in it because it helps to ease the pain.  I really do not care what people think about it either.  You are my son and I will love yo for ever and ever.  You will always be alive in my heart.

Mommy, sissy and bubby miss you as well.  They asked me to tell you.  But I think that you already know.  Why couldn’t you just stay away from that water.  You would be here with me today.  I miss you more than words can speak.  The empty spot at the dinner table.  My house actually stays clean now.  I would give anything to have you back here tearing it up for me to pick up.  I know that you are in heaven with Jesus now watching down over us and protecting us.  I will see you when I come home son. 

I love you like a fat kid loves cake,

Daddy

To my readers

These are just a few feelings that I had today.  There is not a moment that goes by that I am not thinking of my little Man.


 
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Posted by on May 16, 2011 in Letters to Caleb

 

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