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Another Blessing from God

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Let me introduce to you a new member of the family.  This here is mister Noah.  My family and I have been through a great struggle over the past several years, and here is the end result.  This is a good example of how the Lord gives and takes away.  Tune in for more later.

 
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Posted by on November 19, 2014 in About

 
Aside

Dear Lord……

I have taken a huge step out into faith.  I feel as if this is where you are leading me to.  Would you please see to that my family and I make it throughout this transition.  Please take way the anxiety that is involved in all of this, you can have it.  I do not want it any longer.  I know that you are going to see us through.  I just know that you are…

In the name of your son Jesus Christ I pray.  Amen

 
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Posted by on April 9, 2014 in About

 

How About The Other Ear

Ok here is part two of my ranting and raving.  what is it with companies being picky about who they choose to hire.  It seems as if the hiring system for employment is as screwed up as the family court system.  The wrong thing seems to happen to the good people.  The only thing left to do in the end is hold your head up high and trust in the Lord to lead you in the right direction.

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

Trusting in this lone verse is what keeps me going.  but none the less it is still so very painful.  Rejection sucks, plainly put.  But I will certainly not let that get me down.  Neither should it you.

Your body language hurts as well.  If you do not like what you see then turn your head and look away.  I do not have to explain myself to you.  My maker in heaven is the only one that I have to answer to.  To stand there and look me in my face and convince me that things are alright, but secretly you are shoving a hot knife in my back.  What a waste of human flesh.  You ought to burn in hell for that one act alone.  But the bible tells me that I am to forgive you.  How in the hell am I supposed to do that?  I have held on to this grudge for so long.  I will tell you, you are lucky there is distance that separates us. 

I promise you people that this will get better.  I just need to let some things fly, I need to heal.  I have been through a lot of stuff since bubby died.  The road of grief definitely has not been an easy one for me.  But I will prevail.  I am here for a purpose.  I will not leave until it is my time and my heavenly mission is complete.  Thank you all for reading.  I love all of you.

 
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Posted by on October 14, 2013 in After the Ashes

 

An Ear Please

New times have risen for me and my family.  The grass was only greener on the other side for just a little bit.  I was just setting here wondering why it is that It seems why I am not allowed to have children.  Is this supposed to be some sort of lesson that I am supposed to learn from the Lord.  To bring a closer light on what  I am talking about.  The first child that was born to me has been stripped away from me by a child alienating parent that I cannot seem to get the court system to see the crap that is going on.  The other child that was born to me was taken from me in a swimming pool accident.  What the heck is going on here?  The only thing that I can seem to do to make sense of all of this is to look up to the Lord for direction.  Sometimes the answers that I am looking for do not come.  Sometimes they do not come at all.  Life sure has a funny way of doing things don’t it?  Along with all of the animosity that is going on in our nations government this whole situation looks very blurry.  The one fact that remains true is that the sky and the staircase to heaven are very clear to me.  Please forgive me for ranting and raving, but it has been while since I have wrote my thoughts out.  Consider this a social outpouring of my spirit.

The Lord has me locked in place.  until I complete what it is he has set me out to do, I  cannot proceed in my life.  Sometimes it is tough for me because I have such huge dreams for my children and family.  But God is gently nudging me along.  It is almost as if I can see him standing there shaking his finger at me with his hands on his hips shaking his head. “Not until you finish this step in the process my young child.”  In a sense it seems to be growing me as a person though as I weather through one storm into another.  And people wonder why my hair is starting to turn whit at such a young age.  Call it the wisdom of the Lord.  I have become a better leader since all of this has taken place in my life. 

I would have to say that the turning point in my life was when little Caleb passed away.  It was a very tough time for my family and I but we are still standing strong together.  We made it through the fire together, but this was only possible through the loving acts of the Lord and his good graces.  Okay I have had enough of this ranting.  I will put some more on here tomorrow so tune in.

 
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Posted by on October 13, 2013 in After the Ashes

 

A Little Visit

Dear Caleb,

It has been a very long time since I last wrote to you.  But you know that I have certainly not forgotten about you.  I just wanted to drop by and say hi to you and to tell you that I love you still with my whole heart.  I still miss you deeply, but I have been busy with mommy, sissy and bubby.  We have all built a very good life for ourselves from the blessing that God has given us.  We have been spending our time getting to know the Lord better so that we can have a spot right beside you in Heaven.  I do not know when I will take the time to write to you again.  Just know one thing.  You are always welcome back home to pay us a “little visit.”  Thank you so much for being so understanding sorry to bother you.

I love you like a fat kid loves cake,

Daddy

 
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Posted by on October 1, 2012 in Letters to Caleb

 

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A Letter to Mommy

Dear Mommy,

I can see that you are very sad.  Will you please put a smile on your face?  What happened to me is not your fault.  It is not daddy’s fault either.  God has a plan for each and every one of us from the time we are born.  I did what it was I needed to do and it was time for me to go.  I know that you would like to have me back in your arms again, but it is my turn now.  You did such an awesome job loving me, it is my turn to carry you in my arms.  But you see your sadness makes it difficult for me to comfort you.  So please mommy, open up your heart so that you can see that I am right here beside you and daddy.  I never left.

I love you like a fat kid loves cake,

Caleb

 
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Posted by on March 16, 2012 in Letters From Caleb

 

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Changes

Dear Caleb,

It sure has been a long time since I last wrote to you.  You know, I think that for some strange reason your death has really changed who I am as a person.  I wish I had more to write but I just don’t right now.

I love you like a fat kid loves cake,

Daddy

 
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Posted by on March 15, 2012 in Letters to Caleb

 

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