This has been one of the most unique Christmas’ I have ever in my life have had. It has been one filled with numerous emotions. Ranging anywhere from extremely happy, to sad. From being extremely angry and impatient to kind hearted and loving. Tears were shed and laughter was heard. There were feelings of togetherness as we celebrated with our family. Then there were feelings of great loneliness. Yet, this year was really calm and organized. That is very strange for this time of the year. There was just a peace in the air that was like no other. I can honestly say that despite the circumstances this was the best Christmas I have ever had in my life.
I really feel the presence of the Lord on this day bubby. It is almost as if he has reached his hand down from heaven and he is gently guiding us along. There is a story that leads up to these calm and docile feelings that I have. It all started several days ago when you came to visit me in my dream. You know the one where I was lying in bed half awake, half asleep. Suddenly I seen a really bright light come over my eyelids. It seemed as if it was the morning sun shining in my face. I remember very vividly, I was in a really bright room. I sat up and looked around, I noticed a window right behind me. There was bright sunshine radiating through. As my eyes came into focus, I saw you looking in the window at me. You had the biggest smile on your face. We connected in that dream on a level that I have never connected with you before. I knew right then and there that you were okay. I felt a great peace come over me. It was such a great experience I had to tell mommy. Later on that day we received a great blessing from the Lord. I cannot even begin to tell you or even explain the great work the Lord is doing through me.
As today grew closer and closer I did not have the feelings of missing you, I knew that you were right here with me. You are in my heart. There is a place there for you that you can call home always and forever. I will hide you there and with the power of God’s love I will go on in this world changing lives one at a time. Before I close this letter to you, I want to share a poem with you that expresses my love and devotion to God, you, our family and everybody else in this world who needs a shoulder to lean on.
Christmas time has come and passed,
it seems as if another year is gone away so fast.
Before you know it, it will be time to do it all over again,
then another new year will begin.
However there is one thing that will never change,
spending each new year without you and how it feels so strange.
I know that you will always be there in my heart,
nothing in this world will ever break those feelings apart.
What is it that helps me get through all of this you ask,
it is all about God and his great task.
A heavenly mission that was set out for me from day I was born,
one I will carry on with even after being broken, battered and torn.
You see in order for you to see God through me,
I have had to lose things so dear and close to me.
But if that means that you will be in heaven with me someday,
I will lose everything for you just to show you the way.
Well that is it bubby, I really hope that you have had an awesome Christmas. I know that I have.
I love you like a fat kid loves cake,